al-Muqaddimah/Prelude
My Mind & Heart are constantly, as well as consistently, in a Tug-Of-War. The Reason being is due to if/whenever I commit myself to Action…as per what the Right-Decision must be: My Mind sometimes says something while my Heart says something else. My Mind often speaks Wisdom, but my Heart often speaks Rage. It’s difficult deciding whether to go with my Mind or with my Heart. It’s always a Situational-Endeavor, as per whether or not I listen to my Mind of my Heart. I’ll give Some-Amthāl/Examples of what I mean.
Mind&Heart Tug-O-War Amthāl/Examples
Anytime as well as everytime someone has ever publicly slandered me, there’s always been this Arduous-Dilemma I’ve been faced with.
For my Entire-Life, I’ve been warned against speaking my Mind. That in turn has propelled me to react however I want to react via Totally-Unfiltered Ways. But, that’s obviously not always the Route to take though. At Times, I’m very often conflicted: it’s constantly a Conflict-Of-Interests, as per whether to address Things either with Mind or with Heart.
Operating with Mind always seems better.
Operating with Heart always feels better.
And, more often than not, my Mind&Heart don’t always align and/or agree.
Very often there’s Times in my Life when I must decide how to handle a: Situation, Conflict, Issue, Problem, etc. It’s actually frustrating, because I get torn between acting with my Mind or with my Heart. There’ve been Instances, for example, when I’d be motivated to refute Certain Individuals for them slandering me. My Mind and my Heart would often be extremely polarized, as per whether or not I should even write about such Individuals. And, particularly, it would revolve around Backlash.
I’m always willing to stand on what I embark upon
There’ve been Times when I led with my Mind, but lived to regret it. There’ve been Times when I led with my Heart, but I lived to regret it. Either-Way, regardless of the Results, my Choices/Decisions are mine alone to make. I must be willing and I better be prepared to face every Consequence for each Choice/Decision of mine.
I’ve never ran away from the Consequences of any Choice/Decision I’ve ever had to make. Regardless of whatever the Results: I stood firm, held myself high, moved with Principle, etc. There’ve been Countless-Scenarios with/against Others whom I had to deal with, while honestly being very afraid: I still dealt with it & dealt with them anyway.
Courage isn’t the “Absence-Of-Fear”. Courage is the Willingness&Ability to confront Fear.
However, as well, there’s a Difference between Courage and Stupidity. So, because of such a Fact: I in turn must always attempt to make the Smart-Choices, Intelligent-Decisions, etc. if/whenever I choose to confront someone or something. Every War isn’t worth winning. Every Battle isn’t worth engaging. Walking-Away isn’t always a “Weakness”.
In conclusion, my Tug-O-War between my Mind and my Heart is always going to be an Everday-Challenge for me personally.
Gareth Bryant
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